While I was sipping at my coffee this morning, I was thinking about how I’ve let my workouts and “healthy” eating become a small obsession. My ED is peaking through and grasping at anything to send me down that path again. I’m fighting it the best I can, but I just want toast and cold medicine to soothe my achey soul. That’s when it hit me.
I love myself, and skipping a workout won’t make me feel any less like it used it to. Hell, I don’t have to workout at all, because working out shouldn’t be because you hate your body, and that’s why I started in the first place. Sure, it helps with anxiety for me, but sometimes the small amounts that it helps are worth going back down that disordered path again.
It also dawned on me that even though the whole family is sick and my husband works a lot of overtime, I should be positive. So many good things are coming. There’s always a reason to be grateful, and sometimes patience is all it takes to help you get to that moment.
The new year doesn’t always bring about the instantaneous change, like I daydream about. That doesn’t mean that things won’t turn around when they are going in an unfavorable way though. I need to just breathe, and I know I’m not alone.
I know it’s cliche to say, chin up, because it’ll get better. It’s really very true, so I’m determined to get out of my sick funk. I’m feeling a little better, and my kids are slowly feeling better too. It’s just a rough patch. Everyone has rough patches.
We are supposed to get some type of snow storm this weekend. I’m two parts excited and one part nervous- I hope there’s no ice like they said there could be. I’m just sitting here with my coffee trying to tally up the things that I should smile about.
- We are through the worst parts of our cold.
- We all love snow.
- We have the groceries we need, so we shouldn’t have to go out.
- My husband is working overtime, and that means more money.
- We have a bunch of birthdays coming up.
- My grandma has surgery to remove as much of her cancer as possible, and we will be getting more answers on a diagnosis.
There’s just a lot of things that are coming our way, and there’s a bigger positive side than a negative one. So, why not look at the good rather than the bad? I swear coffee gives me wisdom, annoyingly peppy or not, it makes me happy. I’ve had so many positive thoughts and affirmations come my way on this cold afternoon.
There’s A Lot to Smile About!
I am learning, slowly but it counts, to accept my body. I need to accept my curves, so I can embrace them. Once I get to that, I can love myself. I’m on the right path.
Eating disorders don’t just disappear, and even though I’ve been in recovery for a few years, I’m still trying to navigate the acceptance of my curves. I’m learning that I shouldn’t punish my body for being something that it’s not, and that’s a major feat for me.
My daughter will be 2 years old in a month, and she’s the perfect blend of me and her father. She’s healthy, smart, and growing up well.
I’m not a braggy mom, but let me just brag a second. My kids aren’t perfect. No one’s are, but my kids are the greatest source of happiness in my life. I’m so proud of the people they are growing into. My daughter hasn’t had any health issues and is learning at a brilliant rate. Honestly, I’m so proud and lucky to be their mother.
I’m turning 28 years old, and I finally became the woman I wanted to be. It’s time that I’m happy with my self, and I’m so lucky to be surrounded by an incredible family and support system.
I spent my teen years trying to copy other people’s happiness, because I thought I needed a certain type of relationship. Also, I thought I needed to look a certain way. Turns out, I just needed to figure out what made me happy. I can’t say I don’t completely care what people think, but for the most part, I don’t really care what they think. I found happiness my way.
My family is in a good place. We have a wonderful home. My husband loves his job, and it’s a place he can work until he retires. We have everything we need, plus love.
The biggest thing I remind myself when I’m feeling down is that I have everything I need. Sure, I’d love to hit the lottery and wipe away debt and spoil my kids and husband with a ridiculous amount of fun stuff. But, realistically, we have everything we need. We are full of love, and that’s all I could have hoped for when I started my family.
I’m Okay with Cheesy.
This post is almost too twinkles and rainbows for even me, but the point is that I have so much to be thankful for. It’s crazy that drinking coffee and mulling over my grumpy thoughts this morning has turned into a positive afternoon. It’s not always easy for me to pull myself out of those low moments, but I think I’m going to thank my coffee.
Have you ever had coffee talks with yourself?
Is the new year going the way you’d like?
What are some of the positive ways you look at things?
Hope everyone has a wonderful day.