I’m still on my break from posting, but I really wanted to share my Instagram post today. On Wednesday’s, I do a Hump Day Truth where I share a bit about my history with bulimia, my tips for loving myself, and an overall body positive lesson that I’ve experienced. Today’s message was extra important for me, so I’m sharing it here. You can also follow me on Instagram for more.
Hump Day Truth | Even after 6 years of recovery, negative food associations are still a challenge for me. When I was in the worst part of my bulimia, I had trigger foods. These were foods I couldn’t even hold without getting nervous, shaking, or feeling sick. Those were foods that people usually label as “bad” like pizza. I would purge every time I ate it, and sometimes, I’d just chew it up and spit it out. This past year I’ve learned to stop putting so much emphasis on food labels. It was a big factor in my eating disorder, and changing how I viewed food helped me finally feel free.
I understand an apple or other fruits and veggies have vitamins that other foods may not. But it became an obsession. I would punish my body so much harder because of food labels and those negative associations. Now, I eat what I want. Don’t get wrong, I was anxious eating pizza this week, and I don’t know if those nerves will ever go away. At the same time, I know I’m beautiful and food isn’t the enemy. I have to pep talk myself through certain challenges, and that’s okay.
If you can stop looking at labels and let go of what is considered “good” and “bad” food, it could change the way you treat your body, and your body deserves to be praised. Giving ourselves pep talks, enjoying what we eat, and loving our body are all more than okay. Stop restrictive eating and diets. Stop chasing arbitrary numbers whether it’s weight or calories. You can find a balance with your food without obsessing. You can be healthy and still eat what you love. Love your body and relabel your food just like you should relabel your flaws. Don’t look at the negatives, and create positives for yourself. If I can do it, so can you.
Have a lovely rest of your week and weekend! I’ll be back Monday.