Yes, that is the title. Regardless of keywords and everything that should be considered when you select a title for a post, I simply can’t put my feelings into any other words. Usually when I’m at a loss for words, I’m in awe. This time is different.
My blogger senses are tingling. I don’t know how to say it any other way. Recently, I dialed back my posting schedule, because I wanted to work on resting more and even wrote about it here. I’m a very high stress type of lady. I don’t sit down all day, unless I’m typing. Even then, sometimes, I still pace when I’m typing from other devices.
Being a work-at-home toddler mom keeps me busy. I thought I needed to dial it back to work on my self-care. I know it’s only week 2 of “taking it easier,” but I feel so off. Even my 4 year old has asked if I’m okay.
What It Means
If you’re not a comic fan or haven’t seen any comic movies, you may not get the Spiderman reference that is the entirety of this post. Something feels kind of wrong and off with my blog, and it’s overwhelming. I just can’t seem to articulate it as well as I would like. If you haven’t figured it out yet, 3 posts are week are coming back to Housewife Hustle.
Personally, I thrive on chaos and being busy. I love running my household and blog, and I genuinely thought I needed to dial it back to be well rested and happy. I want to take better care of my mental health, but my mind feels like it’s clogged with webs.
It hasn’t even been two weeks since I announced I was reducing my schedule. Already, it feels like some soul sucking, blog monster has drained my motivation and chipper personality. I’ve noticed that I’ve felt sluggish with every task in front of me. Cleaning, writing, and even family fun type of tasks feel like a chore.
Honestly, I adore cleaning. Writing is my biggest passion, and my kids are my happy place. However, all of that glee feels like it’s gone. I typically love change, but this schedule change isn’t for me. It may seem like I’m overreacting, but I can’t stand this feeling. The rest I was seeking wasn’t found this way. And you know what? That’s okay.
Knowing When Your Senses, Blogging and Other, are Tingling
I’m pretty good about following my gut instincts. Regardless of how things pan out, my gut is almost always right. But, sometimes, it’s not. Taking my blog schedule from 3 posts to 2 a week gave me way more free time than I expected. Truth bomb- I don’t like an abundance of free time. I plan my entire day out in clusters of hourly tasks.
I was having 2-3 hours an evening free, since I have a lot of content already planned and scheduled to be published. Let me just say, the first two nights of free time were pretty awesome. Now, it’s driving me nuts! Sure, I’m writing my second book, taking care of two kiddos under the age of 5, managing a household with 4 pets, and blogging full-time.
It sounds like a lot, but I love it! Within that web of busy, I was thriving. The lack of rest concerned me though, because I’m getting closer to 30. Averaging 4 hours of sleep a night is something I’ve done my whole life, and I thought I could become this entirely new, well-rested, person overnight. I thought cutting back my work load would help me in terms of taking care of my well being.
Again, I was wrong. There was this off feeling I couldn’t shake last week. It dawned on me during my coffee this morning that blogging isn’t what I need to dial down. I just need to actually put myself first for once. Too often do I take care of everything and everyone around me, but cutting back blogging seems to be doing more bad than good. Writing is my rest. It gives me peace and soothes my nerves.
Listen to Your Gut
If you feel off, there’s probably a good reason. When things don’t feel like they are aligning, readjust your puzzle pieces until they fit. That’s what I’m doing. I’m a bit different than most professional bloggers, because I want you guys to follow every step of my journey- even the blunders and moments where I’m wrong.
I wasn’t wrong about needing more rest, but I was wrong about the approach. At least this time, anyway. I want my readers, whether they are fellow bloggers or not, to understand that being wrong is how we learn and grow. Also, listen to yourself and your wants. Blogging makes me so incredibly happy, but I thought I was overdoing it. It turns out that blogging is like the therapy and release that I need to make everyday flow with ease.
If something feels off, double check your puzzle pieces. Try adjusting them individually and see how you feel. Feelings and our senses are some of the best answers to our own questions in life. So, I’m listening to mine. We wouldn’t have intuitions if they didn’t mean something.
How to Listen to Your Intuition
If your blogger senses are tingling, your intuition is telling you something. Do you know that feeling you get around people with bad vibes and toxic energy? You know what I mean. You just aren’t sure about them, and even your dog doesn’t like them. That’s your intuition, or Spidey senses, telling you to be weary.
Listening to your intuition is easier said than done. So much can get in the way of figuring out our emotions. Sometimes, I wonder why in the hell do we have to be so complex, but that’s nature. We need to follow our instincts like a compass, but it’s not always so cut and dry. Let’s talk about why.
Overthinking can shake up our internal compass.
I’m an avid overthinker. Analyzing each and every feeling and spec of emotion is something I’ve done my whole life. When we overthink, we don’t let our thoughts flow freely, and that can stifle our intuition.
Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda gives too many scenarios.
When we think of all the could haves and should haves, there are too many scenarios that play out in our minds. Our gut instincts get just as confused as we do when we spin those webs. Consider your feelings in the present rather than all of the other possibilities.
Bias and advice from others can creep in and take control.
My mom and husband both agreed that cutting back on my blogging would help me feel better, since I’ve been exhausted and drained lately. They think I work too hard as it is, because they don’t see the big blogging picture. So many non-bloggers think that we put in so much work for little pay off, because they don’t understand our passion the same way. Don’t let the opinions of others, regardless of good intentions, control your choices.
Listen to Yourself and those “Blogger Senses”
I’m going to listen to my blogger senses. This uncomfortable “off “feeling has to go. I want to feel like myself, so I’m going back to 3 posts a week. Monday’s are for Coffee Talks. Wednesdays are for body, sex, and self-love. Friday’s are for blogging. I agree that rest is something I need to work on more.
With that being said, I’m going back to my old schedule. However, I will do my best to listen to my body and mind more. I won’t beat myself up over consistency if I need a day off. That’s a goal that seems more realistic to me. Listening to ourselves isn’t always easy, especially if you’re as indecisive as me. There are ways you can become better in tune with yourself though.
1. Take a moment to slow down.
Clear your mind for moment. Take time to slow it all down and listen to what your body and mind are telling you. My nerves have been so crazy this last week. I couldn’t even finish up my yoga stretches yesterday. It’s important to slow down, be mindful, and clear the fog. Otherwise, you could end up making a series of clouded judgements.
2. Listen to your body.
Sure, our minds are powerful and complex. But my literal gut has been telling me that this isn’t the direction I need or want. There are these constant flapping, giant moths in my belly. It’s as if my body is yelling at me to just figure my shit out. Listen to your body, it’s smarter than you think.
3. Answer your own questions.
Don’t rely on others. Don’t focus on what you maybe think you need. Cut the maybes out. What do you want? Be blunt with yourself, and focus on YOU. What is going to make you happy? What is going to make you feel your best? Only you have those answers. Don’t overthink, just be honest with yourself. The right answers will come to you.
A More Experienced Spiderman
When Peter first gets bit, he’s anxious and all over the place. I was the nervous, early stages Spiderman this last week. It’s time for more experienced Spiderman to swing in. Spiderman and I just want to live life, be happy, and help people. I know, bare with me.
This was a lot to get to my point, but I’m okay with being a wee bit extra- well a lot of bit. It comes down to one lesson, which is probably my biggest lesson in blogging. Lead with passion. I’m going to lead with passion by listening to my gut and doing what I love.
If you enjoy the controlled chaos here at Housewife Hustle, I hope you come back. I love helping others while sharing my stumbles, bumbles, and successes. We can grow and learn together with all of our journeys. Thanks for reading!